"I really wish you wouldn't go," my mother murmured to me while trying to distract herself with cutting pineapple. She was worried and certainly had every right. Thunderheads were rolling in and I was suppose to be rolling out in ten. I'd only been planning for two weeks and despite the thunderheads and the threat of impending rain pain, I hugged and kissed my mom goodbye, reminding her that I was leaving early so I had time to be cautious. She shook her head and hugged me back, sending me on… Continue

I walked slowly up to her fence and with trembling fingers, undid the latch and slipped through the gate before locking it again. My eyes traveled to the broad oak door with it's dull gold handle. I gripped it for what I thought would be the final time and opened it. The heavy wood swung open and I entered into the foyer and immediately sought out object of my discomfort. She sat on her couch, watching tv and smoking a cigarette. I took a defensive position and tucked my hands deep into the… Continue

Lying next to her on my bed, I dragged my finger tips along her ribs and down to her naked hip. No thoughts raced through my head, no dreams or distant goals. I just laid there with her, listening to her breathing and beating heart. What was I doing? My hands traced all along her skin and I knew what I was suppose to do. I sat up on my elbow and looked down at her. She lay there relaxed and almost sleeping. I watched the rise and fall of her chest and wondered what I was doing now. I couldn't… Continue

Lingering here in my bedroom, I wonder how I've come so far. I began the year with the simple idea of actually maintaining a long term relationship only to end it for another. I'd been so deeply in love with her. She wasn't my first girlfriend, but she was the first one to treat me right. Mal. That was her name. We'd just been together for little over a year and well, I was certain I was going to last with her. However, that was before I met Mary.



There really was just something… Continue